I have been struggling with myself a long time if I have a right to ask for help in my situation but at the end I think I have no choice I need to try. One say you don’t try so you don’t know. I have a feeling that you are very good human who will not deplore me at the very start. 

Maybe I will introduce myself a little and I will try to draw the picture of my current status.

I am almost 42 years old. I have 3 wonderful kids 22-year old son and two daughters 7 and 12 years old. I am still married also but this could be a question mark because of my troubles 🙁 .

I come from Poland and I have been working in Ericsson for 17 years now.

I have graduated University with degree in Economy specialization Informatics and Econometrics. Computers & programming were always my passion the same as economy, financial markets etc. Apart from working in Ericsson, I have been investing on the polish stock mark and this was quite safe activity which maybe didn’t bring too much profit but was fine for 15 years. Three years ago I started to be interested in the cryptocurrency market which turned into future trading on this market. I have to say that it was a turning point of my life which led me to the disaster I am suffering right now. The same as Forex trading , Futures trading on crypto is so volatile that can wipe You out in minutes. 

I think that through a year I was in amuck of gaining, loosing , regaining , loosing and so on. I could not stop this activity. This led me to physical and mental disorders. I was wreck. All of this has ended up with losing all my family savings, my addiction to trading and incredible debts I have made mostly with cash credits in banks (~150k Euro). I was really at the mental bottom those days. I tried to commit suicide even. Lucky I have found good people that helped me to start therapy and start to live without trading.

I got a lot of knowledge about my disease, how to protect myself from wrong behaviors etc. I am clean for a year now. I am still attending the therapy. In the meantime I have been dealing with tough financial situation trying to pay off my debts. Recently this situation has gone worse because of increasing interests rates all over the world which in Poland especially bad. To make things worse recently my wife has lost the job and our financial liquidity is at threat. There is a risk that we will become homeless. I know that I am the only one faulty of my situation but still addiction of gambling is a disease. Maybe not so spectacular as cancer but it can destroy life not only of the sick one but the entire family. Sometimes I am really close to do something bad to myself one more time. I can not make it anymore. I am afraid about my children future, if they will have a peaceful place to live. We had to sell our flat already.

Now when You know a little about my situation I am asking You for support. I am fighting day by day to work as best as I can (apart from problems I have ) and bring value to the world. I am doing extra jobs on weekends but this is not enough to cover everything. You could help me to get out of troubles. 

I know that miracles do not happen too often but we should be a dreamers from time to time. My dream right now if to get rid of my debts and last a good life without worries about future of my family. Work in a normal way , take care of my family and enjoy small things around me. Please help me to become happy father from this picture one more time.