Hello my fellow English speakers! To cut to the chase; - I'm running out of ideas on “how to deal with all of this myself”

I don't earn much, I earn a “student salary” - You can imagine that’s not even enough for rent and bills. I go to Uni because I want to have a more interesting future. I draw pretty well, so maybe I'll just start working as illustrator, or maybe do tattoos one day, who knows. But at the moment- I’m broke.

What stops me from taking advantage of my life and make things better for myself is; My knee requires medial meniscus surgery-reconstruction. It ruins everything for me at the moment. Also I’m anxious that even if I afford surgery - how do I support myself after? I will need rehabilitation and assistance after all.

In addition, since I can remember, I have not had it easy with my bipolar disorder and even though I take medication, I still need to see a psychotherapist from time to time. Of course I can't afford it. I take medications but it is not sorting all the problems with my head and traumas - only prevents me from getting worse.

OnlyFans is rather out of the game - anticipating ridiculous questions. I won’t be able to support myself this way lol. 

I will be extremely grateful if anyone would like to bring me closer to the beginning of my road to regaining health. I set an initial goal like this. I don't know if that's enough or not enough. 

With treatment, you never know how much you really need.

Well every penny/cent counts!

Good people, hope is in you. „